I remember sitting on the edge of that bed, listening to the waves outside the window. I remember realizing that the silence between us had become heavier than any argument. For years I had believed we just needed time, patience, or another vacation to fix things. But that night, as the sound of the ocean echoed through the suite, I felt something inside me quietly shift.
It wasn’t just hurt. It was recognition.
All the Times I Made Excuses
I’d convinced myself that everyone has flaws, that marriages require compromise, that love sometimes means forgiving without reason. But what I’d really been doing was minimizing myself to fit inside his comfort zone.
I’d been saying “it’s fine” when it wasn’t. I’d been apologizing to keep the peace, forgetting that peace built on silence isn’t peace at all — it’s surrender.
Looking back, I realize I’d mistaken his indifference for calm. He didn’t shout or rage; he simply didn’t care enough to stay present. And I’d been calling that maturity.
The truth is, neglect doesn’t always roar. Sometimes it just quietly erases you — one unkind word at a time.
The Suite With the Beautiful View
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