I tried to comfort them, telling little white lies: “Mommy will come back soon,” even though I knew in my heart that the words weren’t true. My parents helped whenever they could, but even with their support, the loneliness was overwhelming.
I learned to function on sheer willpower, carrying the weight of responsibility and heartbreak in equal measure. Somehow, through the haze of exhaustion and grief, we survived.
By the second year, life began to slowly settle. I found remote work as a coder, which allowed me to spend more time with the twins and finally start building some stability.
We moved into a smaller apartment, but it was ours, and we made it a home. Routines were established — bedtime stories, pancake breakfasts on Saturdays, and long walks in the park where the children could run and laugh without fear.Continue reading…